He stayed even when I wished it was him instead.
Can you just imagine that... Your boyfriend at the time, a couple weeks after the tragic incident, see's a message you send one of your brothers best friends where you wished it was him instead of your brother? ... he still stayed, loved me and supported me through it every single day. My parents don't know I know this but my boyfriend told me my dad phoned him and spoke to him for 2 hours after finding out what happened. I am so grateful that in my fathers absolute worst time he still thought about me and tried all he could to 'fix' what I said. I started writing this blog post in 2020, but I have been so scared to finish it and share it with the world. How horrible can I be to wish my boyfriend died instead of my brother, so instead I put it off, but I think it's about time I share this story. To show my other fellow bereaved siblings that you are not a terrible person for having thoughts as dark as this. Also to show you that there are people in your lif...
